I'm afraid I am wearing myself out, but I don't know what can "give."

There aren't enough hours in my day. And even with this amount of exercise (regular dog walks plus one solo hour walking a day, plus yoga or pilates), I still end up sitting way too much and I feel heavy. The scales don't show any difference, but I feel heavy nonetheless.

But how can I do my studying and work if not in the sitting position?!

It seems to be the curse of graduate school.

I really wanted this, and I do want it, and I have to prepare myself for my next career, but eeeeeeek, it's hard.

I crave a whole morning to just go hiking. I would love that. (But am I in good enough shape? after all this sitting?)

All I can really do is keep my head above water and do a good job. I can't do "my best", I've figured that one out already.

In two more weeks, we have a Thanksgiving break from grad. school. There are two weeks "off," though the assignments are heavy during that time. I'm going up to Vancouver to visit my family for one of those weeks. Yeah! Maybe while I'm visiting up there I can find a balance of sleep, exercise, and fun, and oh yes, studying (I'll have to study while there, too). They have a swimming pool in their building; I'm already loving the thought of swimming every night before bed. Nice. And I really need my family. I can't wait to see them.

Feeling really tired out tonight. I'm going to bed before 11 p.m., which is early for me. Puppy already on her dog bed, A.J. at a friend's house, it's quiet here and I will wind down now and go to sleep.

I hope to have a clearer head in the morning. Tonight it's just not up to any more work.

Thanks for listening.